Insanity

"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results." ~ Benjamin Franklin

I feel like this has been describing me to a tee lately. I have not been meeting with God very much, maybe once a week or less, and wondering why my I am so down and out, depressed. Everything seems to stress me out and I feel so burdened because I am not going to the ultimate source of Living Water, Jesus. A verse that has meant a lot to me for about 15 years or so is Jeremiah 2:13
"My people have committed two sins:
They have forsaken me, the spring of living water,
and have dug their own cisterns,
broken cisterns that cannot hold water. "

I have been trying so much to make my own cisterns and the water is leaking out and Jesus wants to provide with his Living Water. The cisterns of busyness. The cisterns of blogs. The cisterns of work. The cisterns of kids sports. The cisterns of volunteering....
None of those quench my thirst or fills my needs. Jesus says in John 4 "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life." A long time ago I heard a pastor preach on this and he said that form of drinks in the original language would be more accurately translated , "Drinks and keeps drinking..."

Insanity. My soul is cracked and dry and is needing refreshment from the Living Water of Jesus. I need him more than anything. For the one or two readers of this blog, we need him more than anything. But I find lately I am not going back to what I know works, time alone with Jesus praying to him, reading the Bible, but I opt for the lies and insanity of everything else that is calling out so urgently in this life, yelling in visual and auditory tones...the internet, talk radio, K-Love, more noise, but what I need is solitude with my Jesus.

My Jesus, Please help me,
Please Hold me.
Help me to drink deeply from your Living Waters,
that well up to eternal life today.
Carry me,
My Jesus...